It never Happened

You know that night that your actually so happy you don't fully remember? That night that caused everything to change,and at the current moment you can't help but think it's for the worse not for the better. You know going back to school will never be the same again. You can fake that smile, say hello, but deep inside you know those two people that you were prior to that night are no longer there. All you can do is try and accept the people you have become, if it be as friends still or not. Regardless you can't go back in time and change it. Not say those words, not feel those feelings. We are all human and we do make mistakes. Some times we make mistakes because we're clinging on so hard to something that is fighting its hardest to get away. So why can't we let it go? Why do we fight so hard to be with some one, who is fighting equally has hard not to be with you? Is it because just like that night we don't remember, or see that they are fighting to get away. We focus our attention to things that may be steering us in the direction that they do want us? Or are we to fixated on the beginning part of the relationship? When everything that was new and sparkly and We aren't allowing ourselves to realize and recognize that its not new and sparkly anymore. Its old and ruined, but we cant seem to let it go because at one moment, just like a favorite sweater it fit perfectly and made us feel amazing.Is that what were all fighting for when we cant let go, that feeling we had in the beginning of when things were amazing and new. and were scared we wont get that feeling anywhere else so we fight and hold on hoping to relight that spark. And that's why we're happy when we cant remember that night that it all ended? because if we remember then we know its over, we have to accept it. If we at least have the satisfaction of not remember we can pretend its not real? It never happened.
--So I put my lipstick on and I put a smile on my face. & if anybody asks me, Everything is okay