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Happy New Year everyone!
I would like to start off this post by stating that its five days into the new year and I am still smoke free! woohoo! I'm proud!
New Years Eve was somewhat a dramatic night for me. My best friend Emilia has been trying to get me away from the guy at school I've been seeing, (I don't want to pull a sex and the city but for the sake of names lets call him "Mr.Big" just because I see so many similarities between the two). But ya so she wants to get me away from "Mr. Big" and attempted to set me up with another guy. I never really liked the guy but just did it for her, because that's the whole thing of a friendship you do things to make each other happy. This next dude asks me to new years as his "date". He never paid for my ticket or anything just, just titled "date" for the sake of it I guess. Unfortunately he took this "title" a lot more seriously then me!! I still believed myself to be 100% single and free to do what ever I want; he on the other hand got very jealous and overprotective. At midnight another guy friend across from me grabbed me for the midnight kiss while my "date" was standing beside me. He got very angry and left.
This got me thinking about titles, how do you know if you have one or if you don't? Do you need to ask the other person? or does it eventually just form into a title?
Me and "Mr Big" have an up and down and all around sort of relationship but I don't believe us to be titled- it makes it easier that way. My friends calls us a relationship just because they can't see me with anyone else, and never want to see him with anyone else. But at the end of the day we don't have a title that we have established. It works out better for us because we have more freedom and no one in the end can get deliberately hurt because we never pretended to have one. So whats the big hype on titling everything? Does it give us a false sense of security because we believe once we are within the strains of a title the other person can't leave? or is it that we have a clear cut definition of our world? Regardless of the reasoning's I think we need to let go of the titles and just live the life we want. Uncut, unorganized. We're young lets live life and be stupid and unorganized now. Later on doing so may not be so easy.